Season1RBRSEpisode22 - Podcast 1.mp3
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Welcome to the rubber Biscuit Rd. show. I am your host, the Gypsy, and this is episode 22. I was trying to think of a good thing to call this episode, and I think a great title for it would be everything comes out OK in the end. Now, by the time you hear this episode, I will probably be laying on an operating table with a camera shoved up. Well, you know. There I'm going in tomorrow morning. Or rather, as you hear this, it'll be this morning for a colonoscopy. You have to have one of these when you reach my age. About every five years or so. And especially for me because the very first time I had a colonoscopy, they found polyps. So of course, they always want to check this out. Now back in December, I almost died. I ended up with a blockage of the small intestine and I was in the hospital for a couple of days. While that all got cleared up, almost one underneath the knife to get it cleared up. Thank God that didn't happen. But they became concerned and so they upped my colonoscopy by just a little bit. I mean, I was supposed to have one. The end of March this year, but they went ahead and they kind of pushed it to the first part of March just to make sure everything's OK up in there. And hopefully everything is OK up in there. And if it isn't OK, hopefully it's stuff that can be addressed immediately. I will tell you that if you are listening to this and you are a man over the age of. 50 don't hesitate to get that colonoscopy done. It could possibly save your life. Now, I'm not really looking forward to this. Be honest with you. I mean, I've been on a liquid diet for the past couple of days and it's just nasty. And you got to take ducolax and you got to take miralax. And there's just all sorts of things you have to do to get ready for this. You have to be totally cleaned out. And trust me, it's not pleasant getting cleaned out inside, but if they find something you know in there that they can take care of, then it's, you know, worth it. Even if they don't find something, at least you have the assurance that everything is OK you know that there's nothing to worry about, at least for another. Five years. But that isn't the worst of it. See about five years ago, around the same time, they had my last colonoscopy, they discovered some blood in my urine, so they decided that they were going to go in and take a look and see what was going on. Well, I went to surgery and they inserted. Camera up through my penis and in my bladder to see if there was anything going on in there and they found a lesion. And they went in and they cut out the lesion. Well, I ended up with a blood clot, thought my bladder was going to burst. It was horrible. One of the most horrible experiences of my life. I really, honestly never want to have to go through that again. But now a a week from Wednesday. I have to go in for an in office procedure this time. They're not looking to cut anything out. They're just going to take a scope and put it up my penis, they said. It's like a catheter and they're going to take a look inside my bladder and I guess I'm going to be able to see it at the same time. They're going to have it up on a television monitor. This ought to be really interesting. They had noticed during my stay in the hospital back in December when they did a cat scan on me that there might be some thickening of the bladder, so they just want to go in and see what's going on and make sure you know that there isn't a chance for bladder cancer. Also they had in a urine test, had discovered trace amount of blood in there. So they want to make sure there's not another lesion. If there is, I'll have to go in for surgery and have the lesion removed and hopefully I don't end up with another another blood clot because that's the last thing I want to have. I know I'm just all full of all sorts of pleasantness today, but when you get to be my age, I'm 65 years old. When you get to be my age, these are things that you have to expect. These are things you have to deal with. The other thing I'm dealing with right now. Is my wife, Rachel just found out that she has stage 2 breast cancer now she's what they call a triple negative. I guess it's pretty rare they can't go in and they can't operate because it just spread. They also, there's certain treatments that they can't use on her because she's a triple negative. So there's other treatments are going to have to use chemicals that they're going to have to inject into her about every two weeks to try to kill the cancer and shrink and let the body absorb it. They're going to do this for about two months. If something happens that the cancer don't go away in two months, then they will start chemotherapy on her. I'm really, really hoping that they don't have to start the chemotherapy because I I know it would be pretty hard on her and I don't want to see her have to go through that. I also really, really hope that they can get this cleared up, they told her she had a 60 to 70% survival chance rate. You know, that's better than a 40 to 30% survival chance rate. So we're going to take that. We're going to take the 70%. I'm going to be on the upside about this thing about this type of cancer. What she has, though, is even if they get rid of it now, it could come back at a later date and she'll have to go through the whole thing again. Now we're going to pray. To God above that you know, it never comes back again. We're also praying that she that she heals up just fine, you know. And if you have a relationship with God, your prayers would sure be welcome for her. I mean, I would greatly appreciate it. I mean, I wouldn't mind some prayers for myself either, but I'm. Mostly worried about her. So please pray for her that that they're able to heal this cancer, if you don't mind. Like I said, I'm just full of all sorts of good news today. But you know, these are things that you know, use a podcast to talk about and get off your mind. I know when I was growing up. I I saw a lot of different things medical wise with relatives, you know, some of them concerned me. My grandmother had asthma, the asthma. Eventually. Uh was what did her in? Unfortunately. And I knew that my grandfather he was born with a club foot he had. Gotten radiation poisoning from an X-ray machine during World War One out in an army field. He was a dentist and. Unfortunately, is in the history books as the 1st dentist to get radiation poisoning from an X-ray machine. Isn't that fun? Uh, my mother, she was a hypochondriac, so she had every single ailment known to man. You never knew whether it was real or whether it was, and her doctors were all so generous. And just anytime she complained about something, they just gave her a pill for it. You know that. Really nice of them. Uh, you know, but when you're young and you see different things like that health issue wise, you don't think much about, I mean, my Aunt Harriet, she contracted cancer and the lymph nodes and they amputate her arm in about 10 days after they amputated her arm. She passed away anyway. That's an amazing story. I'm going to relate that to you real quick. So my Aunt Harriet, big woman. Wonderful woman. Uh, she developed this cancer, the lymph nodes. In one of her arms, and they told her the arm had to be amputated and Harry had said that she'd come into this world with both arms and she was going to leave this world with both arms while her daughter decided that she was incompetent enough to make her own decisions, and she went to court, became her guardian, and. Took over custody of all her property and also of her care and put her into the hospital to have the same citation take place. So they amputated her arm and she went into a convalescent home. And I guess it was, to my understanding about 10 days out of surgery, the nurse came in to bring my Aunt Harriet her lunch, and she hadn't been out of bed since the surgery. And Harriet stood up, looked at the nurse, said goodbye and dropped over dead. Now. And Harriet said she'd come into this world with both arms, and she'd leave with both arms. Unfortunately, she didn't leave with both arms, but my Aunt Harriet was not going to stay in this world without both of her arms. She was a very strong woman. She was a very much beloved woman, too, as I later found out years later. I'm going through Rochester Cemetery and I'm looking for Aunt Harriet's grave. I should know where it is, but I can't seem to find it anywhere. Well, the Sexton and the cemetery happened to be out there that day and she walks up to me. And she says. Can I help you? And I said yes. I'm looking for my aunts grave, she says. Well, what's her name? And I'll go look it up in the office. I said her name's Harriet Wickman. She said. Oh, Harriet, she's right over here. And she walks me over to where my Aunt Harriet is. I said, do you know everybody's grave in the cemetery? She says no. I just remembered the special ones. She said your Aunt Harriet not only had the biggest coffin that I have ever seen in my entire life, she also had one of the biggest funerals that we have ever had here at the cemetery. She said there were cars backed up out on Rochester Rd. They had to bring in the police to direct traffic. She says there wasn't enough parking room, hardly in the cemetery for all the people that showed for her funeral, she. Now let me show you something. If you look closely at the ground, you can see the outline of the grave and she proceeded to walk the outline and once she walked it, I could see it and she was correct. That was a big grave. But of course, when you consider my Aunt Harry with six foot four or five and probably weigh close to 300 lbs at the time that she passed away. Yes, it was a big coffin and it apparently was a big funeral. People loved my Aunt Harriet. When we pass from this world, we can only hope that we have that many people that care about us, you know, and it's always a nice thing to know that people do care about us. But what's even better is why we're in this world having people that care about us. When you have people that care about you, it makes life worth living. If you have no one that cares about you, not that life isn't worth living. But maybe it's time for you to go out and start caring about others so that they'll care about you. See, my philosophy has always been when you care about someone, they'll care about you also, OK? Some of you are going to argue with me and say. Well, that's not. Always true. The rare case is it's not always true, but I'm telling you right now. The way we are as human beings. When we care about others, others are going to care about us. You know, some people that we care about, they may not care about us, but they're not the only people in the world. There's all sorts of people in the world. All sorts of people that are going to care about us. So if you're that type of person, that's by yourself and you think no one cares about you. Let trust me on this. You're not trying hard enough to care about others because I'm telling you. And it's true. Once you care about others. They're going to care about you. I did a. Tattoo in the studio the other day and the guy did it in remembrance of. His mother and what I did was I did an arrow glass on him that had like, tree roots growing up around the outside of it. And inside the hourglass at the top of it was an upside down tree with no leaves. And at the bottom was a tree with all its leaves on it. And it had a wolf head coming out from behind it and down at the bottom there was a banner, Matthew 12. Seven. Now, if you are not familiar with Matthew 12 seven, you will be here in a SEC. Matthew 12 seven is. Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. In other words, how you treat your brother is how your brother is going to treat you. It's the golden rule. We've all heard it. We all know it. Well, that's the same thing with relationships. If you want others to care about you, you have got to care about them. Do unto them as you would have them do unto.
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So I'm just going to tell you if you're by yourself and you think no one cares about you, go out there today and start caring for others. How do you care for others? Well, there's a million in one way to care for others. You can volunteer your time. See, I can't talk today. You can volunteer your time. At different community organizations, whether it's like harvesters helping hand out food or whether you donate time at a nursing home as a volunteer to help out there or volunteer at the zoo as a zoo dose and you know, and not only get to know the animals, we get to know people that come. Volunteer as a student, teacher, advisor, I mean I could go on and on, volunteer at the hospital. There's 1001 ways to volunteer. Volunteer at your church, and you go church, do something, volunteer at the church. But get out there. Get to know people, get to care about people. And I promise you, I promise you that the minute that you care about people. They're going to care about you too, and then you won't be alone in the world. You will not be alone in the world. None of us are alone in the world. All of us, all of us, have some one that cares about us. Whether we realize it or not. There is someone that cares about us. And if you don't know who that is, then you're not working hard enough to find out. And you really need to find out. So. Getting back to. What's going to happen to me tomorrow? Yeah. I'm not going to lie, I'm a little nervous, a little scared anyone would be. You know? I don't like being put under. It's one thing to fall asleep in my bed and wake up in the morning, but to have someone forcibly put me under, I've I've never cared much for it. It scares me. It really does scare me and I pray pretty hard before it happens, you know. Worst case scenario, I'll never wake up. Best case scenario is I wake up in heaven. You know. Honestly, I do want to get to heaven someday. But there's still things on this earth that I really hope God lets me finish and complete before that time comes. So the best case scenario for me is to go to sleep and then wake up in the recovery room and be told that they found nothing inside. Or maybe they found some polyps and they cut them out and everything's hunky Dory. And go home and eat a hearty breakfast and. Have a nice life until five years from now. That's the best case scenario for me next Wednesday. The best case scenario is I'm uncomfortable for a minute while they put that camera up through my penis to look inside my bladder. They look around and go hey, everything's OK in here, you know? Congratulations. You know, if you have any more problems, come back and see us. But until that time. Hey, go have a nice life. You know, we never know what's going to happen. The only one that knows what's going to happen is God, you know? Uh, our maker knows everything that's going to happen with us and. I do, however, believe strongly in the power of prayer if we don't ask, we don't receive it. It says it in the Bible, asking you shall receive. Well, I'm asking and I hope I receive. I still want plenty more years on this Earth, not only to accomplish things that I'm really wanting to accomplish, but also to continue to love all those people here. That love me, I hope I. Can love them back. I have some. Personal relationship fences that I really need to mend, and I hope I have the time to do that. There's. You know, just be honest. Be forthright here. There's some issues with my children and I have been working at least with one of them on those issues. I'd like to work with the others on the issues if they'd let me. One of them, I guess. Really don't want to work with me on the issue. There's another one that's. Indifferent as to whether. You know, he works with me on our issues, he. He thinks I abandoned him, which I didn't do, but he he made a comment to me here not too long ago that I'm his forever grudge, yet I really, honestly never did nothing to earn that status. So. Maybe someday, maybe the Lord will touch us hard and then hard. And then, and we can talk and workout our issues. And he'll be willing to hear what the truth of the matter is, and not the version that he's either been told or that he's made-up in his head. You know, I've got another son that's just completely disappeared off the face of the earth. I have no idea where he is. I've been trying to get a hold of him, and he's not responding back to me. I've got another son that I'm lucky if I have any contact with him once a year and when I do, he kind of acts like I'm bothering him. So I'm just really hesitant to even have contact with him. I don't know what's going. On with that one. I've been making progress with my daughter. I wasn't asked a few years ago and I think I'm making a little progress with my granddaughter, who I wasn't asked to, and hopefully you know. Forgiveness is there and we can work on our issues. I got a another son. That thinks that I told him something in a way that I did not tell him, and that I acted in a way that I did not act. And even though he's been told by witness. Is that none of that happened. He still has chosen to believe what his little 9 year old mind at the time made-up. So I don't know if I ever get through to him. I hope I do, but. I'm not saying this to get you feel sorry for me with the issues that I have with my children. I'm telling you this. So that you know that I do love my children and that I do still want the time on this earth to remake that connection with my children and to mend whatever fences are broken there because I. Honestly, out of all the things I want to accomplish in this world before I leave, the biggest thing I want to accomplish is knowing that whatever problems I had with my children, that we were able to work them out and that we were able to forgive each other and that we're able to love each other because to me. More than anything else in this world, that's the most important thing of all. I love my children, whether they know it or not, or whether they're willing to accept that or not. I do love my children. But we need to. Talk. And I pray that God will give me the time that I need to talk, and I need to workout these issues. So now that you've heard, you know, my *** *** story here about my relationship with my children and my sad story about how I'm going to get a camera shoved up my **** tomorrow. And my sad story about how I'm going to get camera shoved up my penis next Wednesday. I don't know what else I can say on this episode. Yeah, I do know what I can say. I'm going to ask you one more time. Please pray for my wife, Rachel. She needs your prayers right now. She needs your prayers. Not only for her, her healing, but also for her strength. Because as strong as she is, there's areas where she's weak and. She needs desperately needs.
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Those prayers for strength. Well, I tell you what, I've rambled here long enough for this episode. Think about me tomorrow. Think about me next Wednesday. I'll probably have another podcast where I go in next Wednesday and we'll talk about something a little more pleasant than cameras going in places where you really wouldn't want cameras to go when cancer is developing in places where you don't want cancers to grow and relationships breaking apart. That you really don't want to break apart. But the most important thing is if you've got a relationship that needs mending. Work on mending it if you don't think that anyone cares about you. Work on caring for others so that they'll care about you. But until next time, when? Who knows what we're going to talk about, it will be some more randomness. This is your friendly neighborhood, Gypsy. Say May God bless and keep you and yours later. Gators. Bye bye now.